Me

Cassie Walker-Honsinger

I am 8
My mother describes my physical appearance as a linebacker.
I look at my body and think, what's wrong with that?
I am 10
I am bullied in school.
I am told I am fat and ugly and no one wants to be around me.
I am 16
I have sex to feel better about myself, I don't.
I keep having sex though, I was lucky.
I am 20
My husband tells me I am fat and ugly and worthless.
I believe him. Why wouldn't I?
I am 25
My girlfriend tells me I am beautiful and intelligent.
I don't believe it.
I am 34 now
I am fat
I am not worthless, I am not ugly
I am me and I am loved.

 

Artwork by Dung Nguyen

 

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